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heavylegokay i am doing this. you are supposed to post anonymously okay?
post anything that you want, & post it anonymously. anything. a story, a secret, a confession, a fear, a love--anything. be sure to post honestly. post twice if you'd like. then, put this in your lj to see what your friends (& perhaps others who you don't even realize read your lj) have to say. if you're not sure what to say, tell me what you really think of me.
post anything that you want, & post it anonymously. anything. a story, a secret, a confession, a fear, a love--anything. be sure to post honestly. post twice if you'd like. then, put this in your lj to see what your friends (& perhaps others who you don't even realize read your lj) have to say. if you're not sure what to say, tell me what you really think of me.
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Date: 2003-11-22 04:03 pm (UTC)(no subject)
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Date: 2003-11-23 04:25 pm (UTC)to do this I always
end up losing it.
I take deep breaths and
in and out I count the days
but really I'd like
to have something else
distract me, something bigger
and smaller at once
than I - like the idea
of you, held. That roll of film:
sand, dune grass, birds.
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Date: 2003-11-26 04:10 pm (UTC)I wish i'd met you much earlier than i did, i think we couldve been good friends at least, something that geography is now the thing obstructing this: before, it was just my crippling shyness.
i'm very glad to know you, even if just a little. i think it's better than not at all.
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Date: 2003-12-01 01:34 pm (UTC)(no subject)
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Date: 2006-05-03 04:30 am (UTC)My secret is that I'm everything I say that I am and I'm happy and I feel okay about life and the things that have happened to me in the past and I think I'm a pretty decent person when I think about myself, but I always feel like I'll never be good enough. That I'll always be that annoying, other person who wasn't really invited and stands around awkwardly instead of saying things to people. But I never say anything to anyone because I mostly find people frustrating.
I used to get really drunk at high school parties and I'd try to corner someone older, hoping to gain some hope that life isn't always stupid, tawdry, and humiliating, but I mostly found nothing but empty small talk, even though I'd quote Nabakov like they'd know what i was talking about.
Mostly, I feel like I'm right and the rest of the world is wrong, but the world is so much bigger than me that I'm doomed to a life of feeling less than to people who are truly less than.
In short, I fear for my self esteem.